desensitized

I remember those days when I was still in sales well It's like one of those gloomy yet stimulating days of my life. The never ending deadlines, strategies, and planning on creative ways to get ahead. Yes! It has always been that---"I want to be the best! Recognize me co'z Im great!"... yeah I've been there and done that plus all those crazy things just to be number one. It was exciting and rewarding during the first two or three years but then I start to feel that the fast paced way of life as a sales representative has started to eat me and it scares me. I am no longer that sweet and trusting person I once was. All those sales strategies that the company teaches and enforces me to do have turn me into a schemer and I have turned into a monster.